I’m struggling with childcare. I recently switched gyms, which means dealing with a new childcare. I found out the other day that there has been an “incident” recently at one of the childcare locations belonging to the gym I just chose. I’m not going to go into detail about the incident, but I will say that it is something that could, unfortunately, happen anywhere. But of course, my first inclination is to yank my membership and never go to a gym again. I’ve debated that maybe it’s not so bad to keep him in a bubble. So what if he’ll be a tiny bit socially retarded? He’ll be safe. I want to protect him from everything. It brings out a fierceness in me I didn’t know I had, and I’m positive it’s only begun (Stu calls it “Mama Bear Syndrome”). So I’m going to have to draw the same conclusion I have had to draw with germs (which is has pretty much been the biggest “threat” to my baby so far). I could drive myself nuts trying to protect him from everything. A small amount of germs will help his body know how to deal with them. Dealing with conflict in life will teach him how to deal with tough situations as well. He has to be exposed to other people, kids, and social situations in order to know how to cope in life. I can’t keep him from that because I can fear and imagine the worst. There will come a point in every phase of his life, where I will have to put my faith in the God that made him and gave him to me. I will have to trust Him to guide my insticts, so I can know the difference between paranoia and real intuition.
What will I do when he starts school???